Skip the isolationism; get to the Social Psychology

I say,

My black and white thinking was operationalized around me.

that is,

When I said "everybody hates me, nobody loves me, I'm going to eat worms," the evidence supported it.

Evidence:

In one memorable incident, my father was my teacher in a single room K-8 school. During physical education I defied my father's authority by walking instead of running. I was broken when he led all of my peers in chasing me with sticks. Literally everybody was "against me" under my father's leadership. This incident is confirmed in family therapy.

I say,

I adopted strict isolation in order to adapt to strict isolation.

that is,

The devil's fall: an exclusion from warm communion due to disruptive disharmony.

The devil's dilemma: To be loved is to damn the one who loves.

Evidence:

Again, as my father was teaching me in a one-room school, I was disruptive. I would be exiled to the "north-x," the entrance foyer of the church where the school met A mirror kept me company and I did simple mathematics problems aloud for an invisible audience. This scenario is confirmed in family therapy, and was invoked in a recent poem.

Summary

I participated in the dynamics of my family, and school. I adopted a stance of world-avoidance.

The world is the common meeting place, a single relative objective, in which there are many subjectives. By the holographic model, within contains without, the world is in my heart. See heart-part. Sri Sri Ravi Shankar informs us that pain is not a problem; knowledge of pain is.

The world outside me was chaotic and inhospitable. My heart reflected this world. My mind did everything possible to avoid

Philosophy of science mind: Observer/Observed Duality

 

Internal	: BOUNDARY :	External
-	0	+

 

Science of psychology mind adds: Self/Self-Observer Duality

Subjective Internal Self, HEART	: SEPERATE (Ego, knowledge) :	Observing Self
I	0	-I

 

Psychology of social mind:

to achieve Life Satisfaction, an Authentic Trait is expressed with Competence in a Liked Group.

for me: to achieve enlightenment, my note harmonizes with the People of God.

for me: to achieve enlightenment, my note harmonizes with the People of God.

Grammer: conditional of completed action dependant upon presently existing quality.

Implying by "presently existing quality" that my note harmonizes with the People of God even if my attention is unaware of the harmony. How?

All things work together for the good of those who love God. Greatfulness towards the blatently cruel thieves who remind us that we do not want what they do. We are all dancing to it, aware or unaware. "I will choose the delusions of those who leave me." -YHWH.

So, the enlightenment will be achieved when I become aware of the presently existing quality of my harmony. What blinds me to my being in harmony? Simply, a little thing, not a substance, ego. SEPERATION illusion. the idea that i am not in harmony. Willfullness. DUALITY.

By observation we perfect one another.

Many Subjectives relating in ONE Universe	+	0	-	ONE Self relating to Many
	Objective		Subjective
	External	BOUNDARY	Internal
WORLD	Realized Self	MIRROR	Self	HEART	+I
			SEPERATE	Ego	0
			Observing	Self	-I

Many:	WORLD	Operational Definitions	Realized Self
			of
God UNION:		HEART Self	Internal States

 

Leaving attention as foundamental act of will. Apparently vulnerable to infinite regress as self observes self-observation recursively. Note how I appears on the negative side. Circle of power of I imply infinite regress. Due to "expression" caused by "distortion."

See powers of Imagination:

External Expression, I^0 = (1,0) {Objective, External WORLD, Realized Self; SEPERATE Ego}

Observation of External, I¹ = (0, I), {BOUNDARY MIRROR; Self HEART}

Internal Expression, I² = (-1, 0), {Subjective, Internal HEART: Self; SEPERATE Ego}

Observation.of Internal, I³ = (0, -I), {BOUNDARY MIRROR; Oberving Self}

1 and -1 represent expressions, I and -I represent observations,

+ side represents concrete realization, - side represents abstractions.

My cognitive model was very zero-sum. That is, there was a limited amount of love to go around.